Figuring Things Out

I have no idea what eating plan I'm going to follow - probably just cut back and count calories for now. I want to finish reading Chris Powell's Choose to Lose: The 7-Day Carb Cycle Solution and possibly get started on his eating plan. But, I'm not there yet. So I guess until I get there, it's cutting back.

I spent some time checking out the gym schedule online. I'm very eager to start off in the water. They offer four different water aerobics classes - WaterFit, AquaDrills, CardioSplash, and AquaZumba. And of course, I can still swim. My goal is to spend 1-2 hours in the pool everyday (well, 5 days each week) actually exercising, not just playing. I'm not counting playing with the kids in the neighborhood pool as a workout because I won't be doing it continually. It's activity, yes. But I want 1-2 hours a day of intentional workout time in the pool.

I also want to go in for a 1-hour class three days a week that isn't in the pool. That's in addition to the pool time. I know that this seems like a lot, but I need to make the most of my summer off. I need to see some significant weight loss in the two months of no school and to get my body used to working out so that when school starts back I have a better chance of sticking with it, even if it's for shorter periods of time.

So, to get started I took advantage of a Memorial Day sale on www.landsend.com today. I ordered a swimsuit and water aerobic shoes to wear so the pool doesn't tear up my feet. I'm eagerly awaiting the arrival of both and pray they fit. I also spent some time on the Lands End website and fell in love with some of their clothes. I think I just found some inspiration! I love their clothes, and I've already picked out a few things I'd love to own. I know they'll be out of style or out of season by the time I got to a size where I could/would order them - but I think they'll replace them with things I like just as much.

Oh, I forgot about something I'm going to do. It's called "DietBet." You join by placing your "bet" and then you have 4 weeks to lose 4% of your body weight. Those who lose 4% of their body weight split the pot. Pretty cool idea, I think. I'm excited about it and can't wait to begin. I like that I'm not trying to lose the most weight, I'm just trying to accomplish a 4% weight loss goal. It starts on June 1st. It's all online, so anyone can join. Pretty cool, huh?

Confession

I really, really, really don't like my body. I know I should love every inch of me, but honestly.. I don't. I was just in the bathroom changing clothes when I caught a glimpse of myself in the mirror. I don't usually look until I'm clothed. I just wanted to cry. How do I get to the point where I love my body enough to want to make it look better? Maybe I don't love me enough. Is that it? For the life of me, I wish I could figure it out. Because, maybe if I figured it out I'd finally be able to do something about it.

*sigh*